It's been a struggle today!
I get in my head and talk myself out of wanting to fight for this weight loss goal and convince myself that it's not even worth the effort that I go through day by day!
I cannot get out of my head with regards to the goal that I see slipping away!
I wind up in the downward spiral and then eat bad and put weight back on and then start the process all over again.
I won't lie, I haven't been perfect the last 2 weeks and there's been a lot eating out (something I have reduced/cut out the weeks before that) and from then on I've been struggling to drop weight.
I have now put on 1.5kgs since! So hence the thought 'is it even worth the effort'?!
I have been working out a fair bit so I know it's down to the diet which has put me back to where I am.. 100% am sure it's the diet.
I need my will power to come back..
I need my want to reach my goal to come back..
I just want my whole positive mind frame to come back. It isn't easy!
This week so far has been a pretty active one.
I did a cardio Session at the gym on Sunday afternoon (perfect time to go by the way, next to no one in the gym).
Monday - Morning did a cardio session and a game of Netball that night
Tuesday - Morning PT, Tuesday arvo cardio Session
Wednesday (today) needed a sleep in badly so didn't head to the gym (I think I was still recovering from the 2 early mornings from the weekend).. Walked home -5km from work.
Tomorrow PT in the morning and then hoping to get to the gym in the arvo for a cardio session again.
I know that training won't recover from what I have eaten lately, but that makes me want bad food (read: Chocolate) even more because I think it's just all too hard to recoup.
I need to re-focus and get get the negativity out of my head!
To help with this, I have started reading back through the early beginning posts of the ever inspiring Amanda of Me Vs the Bulge. Seriously, anyone who hasn't seen her amazing weight loss journey please go and have a read, she's amazing and is now training to enter a body sculpting comp (I think that's what it is?)!
Amanda started on her journey about 2 years ago, which does make me remember that this is a long term goal, not just a quick over the night fix!
*It doesn't happen over night, but it does happen!*
So that's where I have been for the last few days - mind wise.
I have Fiji for a week in 10 days which I'm looking forward to, but I'm also scared of what will happen when we have an all inclusive food/drink package. Oh the damage!
I am going to take my gym gear and hope to get an hr cardio session each day in just to feel like I am still working out and feeling active and hopefully help make better food choices while there.
I'm not in a good frame of mind at all. I am hoping to get back to the determined me soon. I'm sure I'll pop back soon. I just need to remember tomorrow is a new day!
The struggle and mind games suck!
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Aww keep at it! You've been doing such a great job! It's hard to be positive ALL the time and there will always be challenges along the way but you've got to push through it, it's worth it! Good luck! :)
ReplyDeleteI agree with AshMac, you gotta try and push through.
ReplyDeleteAnd you're right though, it's all about the diet! Well, not "all" but a lot. Some say 70% diet, others say 80%. I myself, am going for the 100%... I really do prefer to lose the weight and be super strict with my eating then to work and work and work it off at the gym. I used to be a gym junkie (many moons ago), spent so much money on trainers, gym memberships etc and just killed myself at the gym. It was kind of unrealistic to keep it up... and because I never really got my diet right, my weight didn't budge. I would work out, and then be ravenous, so I’d eat something too carby and it was completely counter-productive. The diet I am on, levels out my blood sugar and stops me craving carb laden food. It's not easy, but once you flat line on sugar highs (and the evitable lows) it's relatively smooth sailing.
Ooops, sorry... I am a preacher! haha. It’s true though, you have to push through the lows to get to the good bits. As they say, nothing good ever comes easy… And you’re worth it! I like to try and think of the tough times as the real test. And sometimes when you push through those you get rewarded even more than you could have hoped… Even just being able to say ‘I did it’ and that you can be proud of yourself. So, keep it!!
oops, at the end of my long-winded post, I mean to say 'keep at it!' hahahaha
DeleteThank you all so so so much for your tips and ever so encouraging words!!!!
ReplyDeleteI'm picking myself back up dusting myself off and getting stuck into it all again!
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